A whole lot of happy

So things around here have been absolutely amazing :). I never thought I would be comfort and happy about the army life but I honestly can't imagine life any different (and don't think I will have to for a long time lol). Harley is preparing for SOM board Thursday and then its getting ready for promotion board. Monkey is learning more and more everyday and getting way to big. We have started setting aside more "date" time and way more family time. We haven't even had the smallest of arguments in months. Our financial situation is great we're getting out of debt (not that it was very much) and getting stuff stocked up around the house to have more money for stuff later. I am off my birth control and feel 100% better. I have more energy and am in a much happier and cheerful mood since I stopped taking it. I guess the next two weeks will tell us how things are going to be and if I have to go back on it or start some other funky meds.

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Just Catching Up

So I haven't taken the time to write and keep an update of how I'm doing so here we go lol.

I have finished all my schooling just studying and preparing to take my final exam and trying to find a free 3 hours to do it in (like that's possible with a husband and kid lol). But I have finished out the course with 100% and am determined so score high enough on the exam to graduate with high honors.
I have started to loose weight finally. Not a lot but hey, progress is progress. I am almost done with bc started my last month last night and I'm also taking Raspberry ketones as well to help control appetite and help energy levels. Between that and doing 10 minute trainer as well as combatives with the hubby I feel better than ever.
I've finally gotten confidence in myself and started to find myself again so it has truly helped with our marriage and as a family unit.
Monkey is well my little monkey :). He's all boy for sure and as rowdy as ever but so smart. We're working on potty training still but he has his colors and shapes down, can count to 5 and knows most of his letters. He is a boy so he can be mean but he has the best manners I have ever seen from a 2 year old, (please, thank you, yes ma'am/sir, and no ma'am/sir). He covers his mouth and nose when he sneezes or coughs. He's for sure growing up way too fast on me.
Harley is busy studying for SOM board and promotion board and is doing an amazing job :). I am so proud of him.

Well I guess that's about got everyone caught up

I am an Army Wife

So I have to speak my peace on something I read and so as not to get caught up in the fight with the wives on the page where I read all this I'm going to blog my opinion here.

I recently seen a post on Facebook on a support page for wives of military men. They were arguing about the fact of whether it is appropriate to call ourselves "Army Wives" or the like. And some were saying that they find it rude and embarrassing to be called that along with saying that carrying an ACU bag (or whatever camo your husband wears) is rude and showboating. Personally I think this is a bunch of crap. I will always proudly refer to myself as an Army Wife...not to try to mean anything by it other than I am proud to be the wife of a soldier. I understand that there are other ways to say it but it is the easiest and it has been the title we have carried for years. But just because I refer to myself as an army wife or military wife doesn't mean that's all I am. I am a daughter, a mother, a friend, a sister, and so many other things. I don't live in my husband's shadow by carrying that title because I am my own person and I have my own set of achievements and flaws. And as far as the bags/purses or whatever else I may carry or wear that represents my place beside my husband I have just for that reason to show my support no matter how far apart we may be. I may not always get the chance to talk and tell people how proud I am of my husband and his brothers and sisters in arms but I can wear my support so that anyone can see that I stand beside my husband and our armed forces.

I will ALWAYS carry this proudly.

Starting Over

Okay so over the last few weeks I have lost motivation and myself and completely given up on dieting and everything and boy do I regret it now. Things have been rough for me and I've let my PCOS take over and win. But I am taking a stand today and going to kick my own ass no matter what it takes or how much I'm hurting. I could blame it on our crazy family schedule and stress but I'm not I'm admitting I failed.
I started my second to last month of birth control yesterday so that gives me two months to get myself in gear and start loosing weight. I don't expect miracles but I am determined to get results and not give up on myself again. (Which happens to be my biggest flaw as a person is doubting myself and not giving me any credit). I know my hopes of ever joining the military are down the drain thanks to my ovaries but my #1 goal right now is to keep my body in the shape that I would be in if I had the chance to join.
I don't know how I'm going to do this but I do know it's going to take a lot of motivation and trial and error to find what works best for me and that I can't give up.
On a completely different note Harley got promoted to specialist on the 1st which has been much deserved for a very long time. I can't even begin to describe how proud I am of him and how lucky I am to call myself his wife. I know a lot of people say that being a military wife is the hardest job in the military but I have to completely disagree because all it requires is us to love our family and stay faithful when he's away. Because although the times we are apart is hard it's all worth it and all forgotten when we are back in each others arms.
But that's my little soap box for the day haha. He is playing softball with his unit which I love watching and being able to be apart of :). I guess what free time we have between family stuff and Army stuff will be spent studying. Me for my pharmacy technician final and him for boards.
We have also started the process of getting ready for Christmas and doing a major house cleaning and organizing so we can start shopping. I might be insane for starting this early but it saves us fighting crowds and is a lot easier on our bank account. We have his list completely done and broke up on when to get what (along with paying off the credit card by the 15th of next month). I am so excited on how things are looking. 

Uphill Struggle

So I haven't taken the time to write down what I was feeling in awhile. Things have been crazy hectic and not looking so good. I've been working so hard at loosing weight and staying focused but I'm not seeing any results. I have been having almost constant pain the last few weeks and I'm beginning to worry that there might be more than just PCOS. I go back to the doctor in about 2 months so maybe we can figure out what's going on or I can just schedule surgery so I can finally get some relief.

Beginning of a Long Road

Today I started my long journey to a new me, however, it didn't go to well. I woke up feeling sick, no doubt probably due to a mixture of ruptured cyst and my period. I started the 10 minute trainer an absolutely loved it. About 8 minutes through with 2 exercises left I got dizzy and started throwing up. Needless to say that put a damper on the rest of the day.

Tomorrow is payday so I have to go grocery shopping and I'm doing a major change in diet and going to seriously buckle down on watching my calories.

Bumps in the Road

I have a serious problem with starting off so strong and focused and then just losing motivation and slacking off. I have let myself down majorly this weekend. I feel like I need a swift kick in my butt. I have barely exercised and hadn't touched my school work until today. I have never been one to believe in reading positive reinforcements to yourself everyday but I am honestly considering it.

Even with the fact of avoiding school the last 3 days I am almost done with the program and then its getting funding for my certification exam. Hopefully finishing up quicker will give me plenty of time to study and prepare for my final and certification. 

Harley is finally getting promoted June 1st. It has been much deserved for a long time. I am so proud of the person and soldier he is becoming. I know he's going to make a great leader and hopefully one day a great officer. In the short year he has been out of AIT and in an active unit he has received so much praise and recognition. We all can't help but brag about him :). I never imagined being a military wife until I was one at the age of 18 but now I can't imagine the day he retires and I'm living the civilian lifestyle again. It's going to be a major adjustment.

I have been avoiding the scales for months but I am breaking down on payday and buying one. I'm going to make some kind of visual aid to help keep me on track and keep me motivated. I don't care about how I look but about how I feel. I feel so uncomfortable and not like myself. I want my self confidence back and I'm going to make it happen. 

A Journey Of A Thousand Miles

OK...so here goes my first post (and maybe I can keep up with this blog). I have been searching for a outlet and way to talk about day to day life and well I ended up here. So here's a little bit about me.

I was born in Fairhope, Alabama, and my parents moved us back home to Falkville, Alabama when I was three months old. Falkville is a small little town where everybody knows everybody and their business but it will always be the place I call home and return to. Since I lived in the same area I went to the same school from my first day of kindergarten until the day I graduated. I was shy and I missed out on a lot..If I had the chance to go back I would. My 11th grade year I started dating Harley..April 17 of 2008 to be exact, and we've been together every since. We were married in August of 2009 and had a precious little miracle born on January 10, 2010. Harley enlisted in the U.S Army as a 25N and our new lives officially began. In March of 2011 we moved 1300 miles away to El Paso, Tx. It is nothing like home but we've made the best of it and some days I actually find myself enjoying it.

Harley III or as we call him monkey has been the best thing that has ever happened to us and that small little boy changed our lives dramatically in such a short time. I will never take a second with him for granted. It wasn't the best timing when he came along but I would never change it. I was a size 12 and around 135 when I got pregnant. I had a c-section due to some complications and became slightly anemic. In a matter of a week  after giving birth I dropped to a size 3 (not sure of the weight). Since we have moved we've been trying for a second baby but it's been a really rough road and will continue to be. After a few months of living here I noticed I was gaining weight so I started working my butt off to loose weight and nothing was working. In May I stopped having a period and it never came back. I was back and forth to Dr's offices for months with checkups, blood work, and ultrasounds and in January I was finally diagnosed with PCOS. My first doctor told me I would never have kids again and that I should have never been able to have kids. She referred me to an OBGYN for a consult to have a hysterectomy but my OB had hope for me. She said that was too extreme to give up on a 20 year old who had had a successful conception and full term pregnancy without help previously. She has me taking Ortho-Tri Cyclen for 6 months and then we'll be trying again. I am starting my last week on month 3 and so far I have had a period every month on time. And I am making slow progress in the weight loss department. (I'm still hoping to have a break through). My last doctors appointment I weighed in at 206 lbs. My goal is to have my weight down to 145. I am determined to do whatever it takes to loose this weight and keep it off. PCOS not only affects my fertility but my insulin levels as well. So I am doing this for my health, my esteem, my husband, and my kids. We all deserve it.

This blog is going to be about my journey as a mother, army wife, and as a woman with PCOS and trying to beat it.